近日常使用一個網站，叫做NPR/National Public Radio。
對於想要學英文，增進閱讀或聽力還有時事用法非常好的網站。
由於它是一個廣播電台，因此大部分的文章都有錄音播放。
可以選擇一些有興趣的文章，一邊用聽的一邊用看的去了解文章內容。
由於可以選擇，因此不需要每次看英文新聞都是看美國跟誰打仗的事情；
我記得從念書時的沙漠風暴到近日的伊拉克戰爭，
每篇英文新聞頭條都是這些事情。看久了也厭煩。
而NPR的文章就如同他們的標語一樣"All things are considered"，包羅萬象。
因此在這邊做一些連結與介紹。
 
這篇文章是講述一個困在女性身體的男性靈魂，文章的主角叫做Megan/Miles Tyler，
他利用錄音來記錄變性前到變性後的差別；
而也可以從錄音中聽到Megan的聲音，因為使用睪丸酮而逐見變成Miles低沉的聲音。
 
 
Becoming Miles: The Journey Of Changing Sexes
by Sarah Reynolds
September 6, 2010 
Miles Taylor as a little girl
Megan Taylor grew up feeling she was living in the wrong body.
In her 20s, she decided to do something about it. First, she changed her name to Miles.
 
September 6, 2010
Megan Taylor grew up feeling she was living in the wrong body. In her 20s,
she decided to do something about it. First, she changed her name to Miles.
)Miles began taking testosterone(睪丸酮), scheduled a double mastectomy(乳房切除術)
— part of sex reassignment surgery(變性手術) — and began changing his body into one that felt right. 
The hardest part was telling his parents.
Through it all, he kept an audio diary.
Miles lives in Boston with his friend Chris Jacobs,
and first started recording his diary in November 2008. His parents, Vicky and Bill, live in Texas.
 
The Letter
For Miles, the first step of changing his name was a milestone.
"It’s interesting that so much can be attached to your name," he says into his recorder. "
I’ve kind of already divorced myself from Megan. It feels separate from who I am now.
And I really haven’t latched(連結) on to Miles yet. Some days, I feel more Miles than Megan.
It’s kind of weird.  I have no problem saying ‘Megan.’
Now I need to say ‘Miles.’ But I need to say it in an ownership sort of way."
On Feb. 2, 2009, Miles is working on a letter to his parents. He reads the letter into the recorder.
"I need to talk to you two about something. Months ago I started writing you a long letter, but having edited it and revised and picked and poked at it for so many months, it started to feel more like a paper for school. I have a gender identity disorder(性別任認同障礙).  I’ve had it my entire life without really being able to put a name to it and it has become severe to debilitating(衰落) over the past couple of years. My body may appear and function as female, but in my head I have never felt a connection to my body. The sex of my body is female, but the gender I feel in my head is male.
I’ve always known that I was different, but I know now that it was only covering up what I feel I’ve known all along, what I’ve known since I was 6 years old, when I began putting a sock into my pants when I was alone, or when I used to pretend to shave my face with toothpaste and a toothbrush.  What I’m trying to explain here is that there’s always been a disconnection with my gender and my physical body, and I have tried endlessly to figure out what was wrong, why I simply didn’t feel right in my skin.  For the first time in my life, though, I am starting to feel a connection to who I am.
For the past few months, I have been living my life as male everywhere with the exception of my work. What that means is that all my friends have been using male pronouns when referring to me, and have been addressing me by another name.  The name I have chosen is Miles.
I’m delivering this information to you in the form of a letter for a couple of reasons. One, I never would have been able to say all of this to you in person without completely losing any and all composure. And two, I wanted to give you a safe space in which you could react however you needed to react without worry of judgment, as I realize this is not easy news to hear. However, I know this is right for me. You would not be sitting here reading this letter if that were not the case."
When Miles finally sends the letter several weeks later, he does it with Chris’ support.
And Chris is there when Miles receives an e-mail back from his mother. Miles reads it aloud.
"It says: No matter what you do, it will not affect your relationship with us," he says. "
‘Those are Daddy’s exact words. He is, however, still digesting. I’m not as surprised as you might think,
but I dread the further anguish you will endure. Health risks are a big concern.
There are lots — in capitals — lots of questions.  Bottom line, we will always love you. 
Do hope you already knew that.  Love you infinity, M.’ That’s my mom’s sign-off."
 
Home For The Holidays
A year later, after months of testosterone treatments, after his voice changed,
after surgery, Miles records how he’s feeling.
Miles Taylor before his transition. 
Miles Taylor before his transition.
 
Courtesy of Miles Taylor
Miles Taylor before his transition.
"Last year sucked. I just, I felt like I was, you know, carrying around this secret.
My parents didn’t know. You wanna just scream at them and say, ‘I have this news! Something’s changing.’
But now they know. They’re really, they’re really trying.
It’s always a big to-do when I return to Texas for the holidays, just because I don’t see them all the time."
Over the holidays, Miles has a difficult conversation with his parents.
"We have had this tumultuous year of all the emotions, and as you said, the mourning," Vicky says.
"And then to finally get you here. And by this time,
now we’ve been waiting and waiting and waiting to see you and meet you and say, oh, here’s Miles. 
And there you were, and it was like. oh, your shoulders are bigger. 
And the hug. You appear to me to be happy in your own skin.
"But you said you lost a daughter," Miles says. "I’m here you know, it’s not like I died."
I felt like the child that I knew,
the child in the picture on the ice box that I knew and grew up with, was gone. Just pure and simple, was gone.
– Bill Taylor, Miles’ father
"The hardest thing was the loss," Vicky says. "The sad thing is, here you are flesh and blood, lovable, our child."
"Do you still feel like that?" Miles asks his parents.
"I don’t anymore," Bill says. "But I felt like the child that I knew,
the child in the picture on the ice box that I knew and grew up with, was gone. Just pure and simple, was gone."
"I just felt like somebody had taken a cannon ball and shot me through my middle,
and I was walking around and living my life and doing everything,
going to work and acting normal except I had this huge hole," Vicky says.
"It was just there when I got up in the morning. It was there when I went to bed at night. 
It was just there. But the other thing — and I know it’s the maternal guilt thing.
I don’t know if Daddy has this same feeling, but I feel you have done this heroic feat,
you’ve accomplished this on your own. Even though you’ve known that you’ve always had our total love and support,
but that’s all you had from us.  We weren’t actually holding your hand.  And I still have the text messages I got when you got out of surgery."
Vicky starts to cry, and Miles cries, too.
Miles Taylor with his dog after his transition 
Miles Taylor with his dog after his transition.
 
Courtesy of Miles Taylor
Miles Taylor with his dog after his transition.
"Anyway. Well, we love you," Vicky says.
"Always have, always will. It’s really nice to spend time with you."
"Really nice to be here," Miles says.
 
Coming Into His Own
"You know how when a movie comes to the conclusion
and it culminates with somebody standing outside, and it’s just that sigh," Taylor says.
"I ran around without a shirt on for the first time outside.
We had the reprieve from the cold weather, and it got a little warmer and it was drizzly,
and I went to the park, shed my layers and, you know, cool breeze on my chest.  It was just absolutely amazing."